Giving this a try…again…

Been a while since I’ve done any blogging what so ever, So…I suppose I’ll start it out like this…

My name is unimportant. I don’t identify by it most of the time anyways. Friends call me Squeeks, MiNX, or Gypsy. I am a single mother living in Denver, Colorado. No, I don’t snowboard. No, I don’t smoke pot. I lead a pretty dull life.

Wake up. Get ready. Meds. Get my daughter ready. Breakfast. See my daughter off. Facebook. And YouTube. Check on Grandma. More Meds. Sleep, because my lovely insomnia seems to think I am still in college. Hey! More meds! Go get my Daughter. Help with homework, while making dinner. Get my daughter bathed and ready for bed. Get myself ready for bed. Meds. Then lay in bed and stare at the ceiling.

Same routine. Everyday. Only difference on the weekend is no school, and I might get to spend time with my boyfriend.

Ah, the meds. I am “1 in 4” as Ruby Wax says. Since I was 13 I have fought the seemingly never ending battle that comes hand in hand with mental illness. I’m 29 now. Now, while I will admit that it does get tiring at times, it also keeps me on my toes. There is never really a dull moment in my world. So I guess there’s a lot of assumptions about mental illness….. I can only hope that I am none of them.

My mother is one of the “1 and 4” as well, so being as she has more experience with this particular subject manner I tend to look to her rather often for advice. I’d like think that I am rather level headed in my insanity. I live a rather normal life. Only downer is that even on the meds, my moods are sporadic as all get out. I will sometimes find myself wanting to cry for no reason. Or I’ll get really mad about petty things. I don’t like to be cornered, or when people walk behind me. I find it easier to just sit in a corner or against a wall. I’m paranoid of the city. Paranoid of most people even…. ok, so maybe I’m not as super normal as I thought.

I have a 6 year old. She’ll be 7 in February. We live in a house of crazy. Ha! Four generations, all women, and all under the same roof. It’s nice to have family…most of the time. The rest of the time it feels like I’ve been drug to TV Land and I’m a guest on ‘The Golden Girls.’ Only difference is our version is “The Golden Girls on DRUGS.” It’s different… I’ll give it that much.

I’m going to try to keep up on this for as long as I can. So…. if you read, awesome. If not…. awesome. ^_^

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